Sometimes

mood: killer

Is the world stupid or am I just too advanced for it? I mean come on guys who someone love is not your problem or busniess. You have nothing to do with it. Go back to your own sucky lives and stay the hell out of my famlies. For everyone out there who hates gays GO TO HELL!! My mother is gay and its none of your busniess. 

For all you out there who are thinking WTF?!? My christmas was utterly destroyed by my own homophbe Grandpa. About a week ago my mother offically told my grandparents that she liked other women, and that she was as leagly married as she can get to my other mother. My grandmother did not care but my grandpa did. They made other 'plans' on christmas and so we had to meet them the day after for lunch and a gift exchange. But the day of they decided they did not want to eat out with us and said they would come later. A bunch of shit happened and my day was destroyed. 

So for everyone opposed to Gay relationshps. I dont give a fuck. Go whine in a dark corner and shut the fuck up.

♥  me

location: Home

mood: pissed off

music: Amarenth

During Summer I got in a fight with my ex  Best Friend, whose name I will not mention, we were never allowed to solve it because she called her parents and had them 'talk' to me. If that is not child abuse I don’t know what is. Now mind you this whole time I am at her house with no way to get home and her parents yelling at me for not understanding how their perfect 'angel' is feeling. Not to mention she was mad at me because I did not "hang out with her" enough when she was the one who told me to go talk to my other friend, who was there also, because she wanted to go to sleep. So long story short I never got to solve it with her and we never truly got over it.
Lately we have had a rocky friendship due to that day over summer. Both of us have been a bitch I am willing to admit that. But as the day went by I started to see things I had never seen before. I saw how wrapped around her finger I was, like a bitch on call, she would snap her fingers and I would come like the good friend I am. Right? Wrong, that is not how you treat friends. I was pissed, and ever since then when she tried to pull that shit with me I would not let her. Now she has a pretty crappy life. Parents are poor, moms always gone for 'work' and dad is so busy trying to keep the family going that he is never home. she has the sporty twin sister that the dad loves, and the little sister who the mom loves, she is kind of stuck in the middle. So she has some control problems because she has taken on the "pity me" spot in the family. But that does not mean she gets to pull shit with me.
So today I sent her a email saying how thought we needed to stop hanging out for awhile. The letter was very mature and attacked no one in the email.  This was it.

Dear no name,

I’m writing this to you because I need to let you know that I think we should not talk to each other for awhile. Sometimes I feel like you are taking your frustrations out on me. It hurts my feelings. It seems to me that you often sound angry, defensive, or annoyed when you speak to me. And I find myself speaking you to in the same way which is not the way friends are not supposed to talk to each other. I really value our friendship, but at this point in time it’s too hard to be around you. I feel bad when I am around you. I am sorry. I do not want to hurt your feelings, but I am afraid that if I don’t get some space from you I might say some things I will later regret. I don’t know what happened or why it is like this. I don’t know why we swing back and forth from friend to enemy, I wish it could be like it used to be, but it is not and it’s too stressful.

me

In return I got a email about how I hurt her in our friendship and how I must hate her, ect. Later I got a letter from her twin sister saying how I was a control freak and I needed to change. I will fully admit that what they said could be true but who are they to tell me when they have so many problems I cant even list them, nor will I. Sadly I though it would be better not to send a retaliation email and just ignored it. and instead wrote this, on the internet. lol. 
Thanks for reading my rant

- sometimes